The Deliberate #6: The sharpening of attention through potential pain

I can’t remember the last time I learned a new skill where the stakes for not being successful were bodily harm. I’m talking, of course, about alligator wrestling learning how to ski. Somehow, despite growing up in a locale with long, cold, and snowy winters, I had never gone skiing in my entire life until a few weeks ago. It was probably mostly a function of it always overlapping with hockey season in my youth and then being a poor teacher and then poorer graduate student for most of my 20’s. Nonetheless, a few weeks ago I found myself looking up at a mountain in New Hampshire with skis on my feet and a full day of either a.) learning how to ski and having fun or b.) failing to learn how to ski and not having all that much fun.

To cut the story short, I did successfully learn the basics such that I was able to go up the chairlift and find my way back down the mountain multiple times without completely beefing it.

The reason I bring it up here, though, is to quickly explore the effect that high stakes has on attention. While I took to heart the advice to keep myself under control at all times, there were a handful of moments where I found myself going over some ungroomed/bumpy snow with slightly too much speed with trees slightly too close for comfort where the quality of my attention was sublime. There was nothing other than me, the snow, and trying to stay on my feet so I wouldn’t have to be taken down the mountain on a stretcher. In a classic example of finding flow, my available skill was ever so barely in balance with the challenge I was being presented. 

High stakes put an edge to attention that I find extremely useful and enjoyable. Are physical high stakes the only thing that does this? Is it more skillful to be able to bring that quality of attention to even low stakes activities? Is this why Cal Newport’s advice in Deep Work to set potentially unreasonable deadlines for yourself works? Did I just write a whole article about flow and not realize it until just now?

All I know is that I’m ready to go skiing again.


Good Things

  • Reading in the Age of Constant Distraction: I can be a very unsympathetic person when it comes to reading because a.) I don’t have kids (which means I have lots of time for reading), b.) I like to read, c.) I’m a relatively fast reader, and d.) I read a lot. At the same time, however, I can still feel the tugs on my attention that try to distract me from diving deep into a book.

  • Workism Is Making Americans Miserable: I was introduced to a new word in this article — workism. Basically, the idea of worshiping work almost like a religion. The article equates workism with hours worked but I immediately started thinking about what workism would look like if you were obsessed with how you worked rather than how much. More to come on this, I think...

  • Beliefs: I’m in love with the idea of capturing my beliefs into some kind of living document and revising it over time. This is such a good example of what it could look like.

  • Why the Siri Face Is All I Need from My Apple Watch: I pine for a future where all my devices are excellent at giving me contextual information and notifications. Basically, I want my devices to know what I’m doing, what I should be doing, and to help me take action in that direction. The Apple Watch is the closest thing to that right now and the Siri face is where the action happens. This article convinced me to give it another go.

Closing Round

  • Playing: Cribbage With Grandpas (iOS). Yes, it’s a video game where you play cribbage with a grandpa. And yes, you can customize your grandpa.

  • Eating: I got a pizza stone and I learned how to make homemade dough so I’m turning into even more of a pizza fiend than I was before.

  • Listening: Cloud Cult (Apple Music/Spotify) seems like one of those bands I should’ve been listening to since college but somehow I only got turned on to them in the last year or so. They’re incredible.

  •  Working: How do you teach a smart person to do the work we do as an internal change agent? I’ve been wrestling with a coaching curriculum centered on organizational change for the past few weeks.

  • Drinking: I accidentally bought dark roast coffee. I’m drinking it under protest.

  • Reading: Still working my way through Figuring by Maria Popova. I can’t decide if it’s terrible or great. I also re-read Digital Minimalism last weekend. More to come on that...

  • Podcasts: I’m in the midst of a digital detox (see Digital Minimalism above) so I’m podcastless at the moment. Prior to kicking off my digital detox, though, I listened to the multi-episode arc of the Apollo 13 mission on the Brady Heywood podcast. It was so, so, good (and talk about a situation requiring the sharpening of attention for all involved...)

That’s it for this week. As always, feel free to reply to this email to say hello. If you’re so inclined forwarding this to someone you think might dig it is the best compliment you can give.

The Deliberate #5: Stigmergy and the Deliberate Use of Attention

A good thing about having a notoriously porous memory and a large back catalog of writing is that looking through my old writing sometimes feels like I’m seeing these ideas for the first time. Occasionally, I find myself nodding along and thinking, “Wow, sometimes I'm smart,” and more frequently I cringe with every word read. Recently, I was digging through my Medium archive, which has some of my writing from as long ago as 2015, and stumbled across an idea I really like and want to do more with.

Essentially, the idea is that you can and should make changes to your environment to help you take the action(s) you know you’ll want to, or should, take in the future. It’s called “stigmergy.” The canonical example is putting something that you must absolutely not forget to take to work literally in front of the front door so you have to move it or step over it to leave in the morning.  By doing this you've changed your environment (put something that normally doesn't belong in front of a door in front of a door) so that you'll take a specific action (take that something with you when it's time to leave).

The reason I like it is not because I necessarily have a huge list of things that fit into this category but because I know the feeling of wanting to capture the moments where I’m feeling inspired and full of positive energy such that I can reap those benefits when I feel shitty and super low in energy later. It’s like leaving little messages in bottles or power-ups for my future self when I know I’m gonna need it.

It strikes me as a particularly savvy way to harvest moments when I’m using my attention well so that I can use that mindset again in the future. It also requires the humility and self-awareness to know that this feeling of being so on top of things isn’t going to last forever and I should do what I can to make the runway to get back to this state of mind as smooth as possible.

A couple quick examples:

  • I know that drinking water is important but sometimes I forget to do it first thing in the morning because water isn’t coffee and the only thing I want in the morning is coffee. So, one day when I was feeling particularly motivated to make sure I drink more water I put a recurring reminder in my phone for 6:45 AM (about 15 minutes after I generally wake up) that says, “Drink some water, ya dingus.” It generally makes me chuckle. And then I drink some water.

  • I know that walking through a few specific steps at the beginning of my day can set me up for a really productive and positive day. Basically, it’s simply spending 5-10 minutes getting situated, turning on my “focus music”, reviewing email and Slack for open loops, reviewing the tasks I’ve given myself for the day, and setting one big “most essential thing” that I’m going to work on first. When I do that, I generally have a good day. Do I feel like doing that everyday? Hell no. But the fact that it’s captured in a little recurring checklist that’s waiting for me when I sit down at my computer each morning means that it’s easy to do it even when I don’t want to.

  • If I know I’m planning on working out later I’ll put my contacts in (rather than wear my glasses) and will put on my workout clothes as early as possible. This sends signals to my brain that I need to go workout. If I’m still sitting here in my workout clothes and a complete lack of sweat when it’s time to get ready for bed then I know I messed up.

I would love to do a better job of creating more of these things for myself in the future. It seems to start with an awareness of when I’m feeling good and humming along and the humility to realize that this isn’t always going to be the case and that I should try to find a way to leave something behind that the really lazy, bored, uninspired, and surly version of myself might be able to pick up and use to make himself a slightly better version of himself/myself.

 

Links

Robert Caro is one of my writing idols

I was going to save this link as a reason to write something long and profound but I feel like that window has passed. Anyway, here’s a new article about Robert Caro, maybe my favorite living author. He writes incredible biographies (The Power Broker and a 5-volume series on Lyndon Johnson) and is one of my favorite examples of what dedicated and relentless focus can accomplish. This article from 2012 about his writing process is sublime, too. Also, he has a new (non-biography) book coming out that I just insta-preordered.

Brave New Work by Aaron Dignan

My colleague and founder of The Ready, Aaron Dignan, has been hard at work on a book for the better part of two years and it was released today! If you’re interested in a better future of work — one built on trust, autonomy, and continuous participatory change, then you should check out Brave New Work.

 

How Steinbeck Used the Diary as a Tool of Discipline, a Hedge Against Self-Doubt, and a Pacemaker for the Heartbeat of Creative Work by Maria Popova of Brain Pickings

Awhile back I read Grapes of Wrath and Working Days: The Journals of The Grapes of Wrath back-to-back. It was a pretty good move and Working Days is one of the most inspiring books I’ve read in a long time. Turns out Nobel Prize-winning authors think they’re shit writers some of the time, too. 

 

Closing Round

With five issues under my belt I feel safe asking you early adopters to consider forwarding this newsletter to someone you think might enjoy it. It has been a blast to write and I'm looking forward to keeping it going for a long time.

The Deliberate #4

I never said this newsletter would be weekly but part of me knows that I’m shooting for a more-or-less weekly schedule. I was hoping by never putting words to that intention I could slip by it without it noticing. It has been over one week since I sent the last installment of this newsletter and unfortunately that intention was far more attentive than I thought and now I’m sitting here feeling bad for not sending something sooner. 

I’m not one of those romantic writers who seems to be powered by self-loathing and poor decisions. My self-loathing and poor decisions show up as deciding that the best use of my time is definitely trying out three new email apps or, in a bygone era, updating all the metadata on my MP3 collection. It definitely doesn’t drive good writing. 

On the other hand, though, a met deadline is like a burst of positive energy. In what is probably going to be the least relatable metaphor ever, it’s like when you’re playing a racing video game (for some reason the early 2000s arcade version of Cruisin’ USA is stuck in my head) and you hit a checkpoint and the timer that was counting down to your failure resets. A wave of relief, a brief moment of thinking “I have SO MUCH time now,” and then the quick reversion into “Oh shit the time is running out.” (Hey, it makes sense to me.) 

All that is to say that commitments to myself (which is really all deadlines are, right?) are important. Not in an objective life-or-death sense but in more of an energetic and emotional life-or-death sense. A met commitment is a burst of identity reaffirming energy and a missed commitment is a a new piece of ammunition for the inner critic who is all too happy to chime in about my shortcomings. We all need more of the former and much, much, less of the latter. 

A little while ago I learned that these commitments that are either met or missed don’t even have to be OFFICIAL commitments where I’ve consciously said to myself, “Samuel, my boy, you’re going to run every day for a week!” (My inner voice who tells me to do good things sounds like a Victorian Dad.) It’s the UNOFFICIAL commitments, the little subconscious shoulds and coulds that seem to count just as much as the official ones. It’s the Quiet Little Voice that says, “I know I should journal everyday,” or, “I told myself I wanted to make sure I at least went for a walk everyday,” but never makes itself known enough to officially register as This Is a Thing I’m Doing Now that’s the real killer. 

It makes sense to not want to disappoint Victorian Dad. He/we were so clear about what I was supposed to do! It was probably written on my whiteboard or on a post-it stuck to my computer for God’s sake! It makes a lot less sense to feel bad about disappointing the Quiet Little Voice but apparently the emotional repercussions are the same. (Turns out.)  

I’ve gotten better at identifying that Quiet Little Voice and telling it to either speak up and make its expectations explicit or to shut up and stop trying to run my life (hence my relatively new Anchor Habits of RunWriteSitMove). 

I thought I had a pretty good handle on it until I realized I was feeling bad for not writing a new issue of my explicitly non-weekly (but apparently implicitly weekly) newsletter and couldn’t think of anything to write about because I felt too bad about not writing to get outside of my own head to figure out a good topic to write about so I just wrote about paying attention to the little voice in my head that sets deadlines and commitments without me even realizing it and I threw all respect for run-on sentences out the window. 

 Whew.

 Also, I still don’t know if this thing is going to be weekly or not. I need to go have a chat with my Victorian Dad and Quiet Little Voice.


Hot Tip 

Figure out what expectations you have for your behavior that you’ve never actually captured and written down. Capture those bastards and interrogate them. Is this a good thing that you want to do for real? Then do it for real and celebrate when you’re successful and hold yourself accountable to failure! Is this an irrational thing that you don’t want to do? Tell your Quiet Little Voice to find something else to fixate on because it ain’t gonna happen. Rinse and repeat forever.

 

Links 

•  No links today! Look how much I just wrote! You still want links after this?! I never promised links. 

•  I even included a new section called Hot Tip and you went ahead and kept reading to the second bullet while probably hoping for a link. Shame.

•  Fine. One link. I liked this article about being a “bifurcator” a whole lot.

 

Until next week (maybe),
Sam

The Deliberate #3

I see two major (and opposite) approaches you could take when trying to be more deliberate with attention. 

The first is to simply be much more selective about what event enters your awareness. This is the realm of digital minimalism (anyone else stoked for Cal’s book?), Essentialism, and the recent obsession with Marie Kondo and The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up. This is the approach that resonates most clearly with the way my own brain works. I’ve been a minimalist in most ways for a long time and when I’m really feeling on top of my game I really have a lot of sources of information locked down. 

The other approach is to care much less about restricting the streams of information that enter your life and instead be extremely comfortable dipping in and out of the streams at will. Folks who are really comfortable with this approach must not feel any obligation to keep up to date with these sources of information. They aren’t Twitter timeline completionists or Inbox Zero adherents. As Rands puts it in a recent podcast of his I listened to they’re good at “tasting the soup.”

I always discounted this way of operating but I’m becoming more and more interested in how I can adopt more of it. If I’m honest with myself, sticking to the minimalism approach of attention management sometimes feels like a losing battle. There’s a constant vigilance that can feel righteous and sacred on my good days and exhausting and Sysiphian on my bad days. How nice would it be to not care about following thousands of people on Twitter or worrying about the backlog of TV shows that you said you wanted to watch or letting the notifications pile up on Slack? Dip in, dip out, move on. 

I look to something like Apple Music as an example. I have at my fingertips what seems like all music that has ever been created and tens of brand new albums and playlists algorithmically selected for me every day yet I don’t feel any overwhelming urge to “complete” Apple Music. It’s just a thing I use when I want to and forget about it the rest of the time. It makes me wonder what else I could treat more like that rather than as an open loop that I desperately need to close in order to feel better.

I’ve taken a small step in this direction over the past couple days. This probably sounds crazy to most people but I actually created projects in Things to keep track of which video games I was playing. I didn’t want to have too many in progress so I figured if I visualized how many I had “active” I would be less likely to try to tackle too many at once (which I know can make me feel scattered). To the surprise of no one, putting video games in your task management software is a great way to make them feel like work.

Can I extend this elsewhere? To Twitter? To RSS? To email and Slack? Who knows! Am Ion the verge of a digital rumspringa just in time for Digital Minimalism to come out and probably rock my world like everything else Cal Newport has written? 

Stay tuned.

 

Links And Whatnot

•  Rands, of Rands in Repose fame, rebooted his podcast called The Important Thing. I enjoyed its very short initial run and the new episodes are pretty good too. I particularly liked The One About Information Consumption (which is where I first heard the “tasting the soup” metaphor I mentioned above).

•  In December I helped facilitate a session at the Work Awesome and Inbox Awesome conference. We kicked it off with a 10ish minute talk about The Ready and org design before breaking into groups to do an activity (which the video captures but I can’t imagine makes for very compelling viewing). We then reconvene at the end for a 10-15 minute discussion and Q&A. I’m pleasantly surprised at how the talk portion turned out.

•  Should the long thing I wrote at the start of this newsletter be an article instead? I was thinking it’d be a good topic for a newsletter and then I started writing and writing and writing and it turned into something kind of long. Too long for a newsletter?

•  I keep forgetting to mention that I try to do a daily “open office hour” everyday that anyone can sign up for by going to my Calendly link. If you’ve ever wanted to talk about The Ready or org design or positive psychology or hockey or anything else with me you should grab a slot and we’ll have a virtual coffee together.

•  I love being pleasantly surprised. You know what recently surprised me? How good the TV show Letterkenny is. For what started as a goofy YouTube series about small-town Canadian life has turned into a still very goofy TV show about small-town Canadian life that has actually grown a heart and a pretty astute progressive voice. I’m naturally disposed to like it considering my Southeast Michigan upbringing (I’m pretty close to as Canadian as you can be as an American) and many years of hockey playing but I think anybody could actually love this show. You may need to leave the captions on and brush up on your hockey player lingo but if you give it a go (S1 and S2 are good, S3 is meh, and S4-6 are incredible) I think you might also be pleasantly surprised. It’s raunchy as hell so put the kiddos to bed before you pop it on.

•  I DIDN’T MEAN TO WRITE THIS MUCH I’M SORRY.


Until next time,
Sam

The Deliberate #2

Follow-up: Starting the first issue of my newsletter with a link error feels like some kind of bad omen, right? Thank you to those who reached out and alerted me to the fact that I messed up the link to the tweet about learning and body paint. Here’s the correct link. Sorry about that! 

I finished reading The Incomplete Book of Running by Peter Sagal (of Wait Wait... Don’t Tell Me! fame) last week. It was a weird, but very good, book. Part memoir part and love letter to running it covers a lot of ground. I particularly enjoyed the following passage: 

“Then as time went on, I started to give up my headphones for training runs as well. I am typing this, obviously, staring at a screen. The computer is also playing music, which I enjoy as I write. When I finish writing in a little bit, I will go have myself some lunch, and of course I’ll play some music or news, and maybe even look at another screen. After lunch, I’ll go rake some leaves or do other tasks, with headphones firmly in my ears; I’ll enjoy music over dinner, and then finish my day by watching another, larger screen, with some content that, I hope, can command my entire attention. If I don’t leave my headphones behind when I run, I wouldn’t spend a single minute of my waking life free from input.” 

This speaks to the sense of connectedness I’ve felt between my various anchor habits: reading, writing, exercising (running), and meditating. When I’m meditating well it’s easier to run for longer distances. When I’m running consistently I seem to have the focus needed to write. And when I’m writing consistently I feel like running. The causation direction between all of these habits are bidirectional, for sure. They all orbit around a central theme of cultivated attention. They all pull from a central well of being able to focus deliberately. The more I can remember that these practices don’t happen in isolation the better off I think I’ll be. 

“I think about my motion, and my breathing, my muscles, and their state of agitation or stress or relaxation. I note my surroundings—the downward slope I would never notice driving this street, the hawk’s nest I would never see for lack of looking up, the figure in a window caught in a solitary moment of their own. I think about the true meaning of distance—about the learning that comes from running a mile in your own shoes. I think about blisters and bliss, and the voices quiet.” 

It’s early — and slow — days for my own rekindling love affair with running and this book helped remind me that a running practice is also an attention practice. 

 

Deliberate Links 

•  I recently read The Coddling of the American Mind by Jon Haidt and Greg Lukiandoff and Blood Sweat and Pixels: The Triumphant, Turbulent Stories Behind How Video Games Are Made by Jason Schreier. Both were good and have generated some potential writing topics for this newsletter. I’m currently working on Where the Heart Beats: John Cage, Zen Buddhism, and the Inner Life of Artists by Kay Larson, Abbadon’s Gate by S.A. Corey, and OpenSpace Beta: A Handbook for Organizational Transformation in Just 90 Days by Niels Pflaeging and friends. 

•  I’ve gone through periods of time using only my iPad for all of my work (I’m writing this on my iPad right now, actually) and this article is a great entry point if you’re thinking about trying to go iOS only in your work life. 

•  This article was making the rounds recently about how you should just consider not responding to your emails because Inbox Zero is an impossible ideal to reach for. Go ahead and read it, but do me a favor afterward and watch Merlin Mann’s actual talk and check out some of his original writing where he first introduced the idea of “Inbox Zero”. The media has absolutely destroyed the interesting nuance of the original idea.

•  After reading Blood, Sweat, and Pixels I stumbled across this article by one of my favorite authors, Clive Thompson, about the doomed game Duke Nukem Forever. I vaguely remember the excitement around this game way back in the day and reading this article was a.) a fun walk down memory lane, and b.) an interesting case study in the lack of creative constraints (e.g. unlimited money). Also, turns out the game did eventually come out and it was bad.

•  I’m kind of in awe at how closely David Foster Wallace read self-help books.

 

Let’s wrap this issue there, eh? Thank you to everyone who has subscribed to this newsletter over the last week and especially to anyone who shared it with a friend. I’m not going to explicitly ask for help spreading the word about this, yet, because I still feel like I’m very much still figuring things out. For now it’ll just be our own little (poorly kept) secret.

 Until next time!

The Deliberate #1: Welcome To The Deliberate!

Howdy! I don’t quite know what this is, but I'm pretty excited to figure it out.

The plan (to the extent you can call this a plan) is to use this space as a much-needed sandbox to investigate, interrogate, and generally explore some ideas that have latched onto my brain and up to this point have refused to let go. I’ve hit the limit of what I can make sense of on my own so I’m hoping the structure of committing to a semi-regular newsletter and the possibility of dialogue stemming from what I share helps me push these ill-formed ideas into something more cohesive.

And what are those ideas that are bouncing around my head? Some mix of:

  • Attention (what it is and why it’s so precious and why we’re all so bad at using it)

  • Positive psychology (the science of all the good parts of being a human)

  • Organization design (how do organizations function best?)

  • Personal development (how do people function best?)

  • Entropy (why it’s the driving force of basically everything)

  • Minimalism (the cultural phenomenon and how it’s about more than just not having a lot of stuff)

  • Essentialism (saying no to everything that isn’t essential)

  • Personal productivity

  • Meaningful work

I’m able to explore most of my org design ideas on The Ready’s newsletter, which I happen to write, but I’ve slowly been accumulating a list of things I want to write about that don’t feel like they fit with it.

At the end of the day, I’m interested in what it means to be deliberate about everything (hence the name of this here newsletter). I worry that the ability to be deliberate is rather systematically being quashed by our modern technological and cultural ecosystems and I want to explore what I think about that alongside other folks who find that interesting.

As far as the logistics of this newsletter go — here’s what I’m thinking:

  • I’ll send one every time I’ve accumulated enough stuff to make it interesting. That probably won’t be weekly but it’ll probably (hopefully) be more frequent than monthly.

  • It’ll consist of some sort of original writing related to something I’ve been thinking about and then I’ll share 3-5 links of things I've read/watched/listened to recently that I think fit into the theme of The Deliberate.

  • If people respond to anything I’ve written I’ll incorporate that into the writing, too (with your permission, of course).

  • And all of this is subject to change, of course :)

My Writing Elsewhere

Let’s start with three articles I’ve recently published on Medium. First, I finally took a stab at getting my ideas about entropy and organization design into writing. These ideas have been hanging out in some amorphous state basically since I withdrew from my PhD program. It feels good to finally have them out and I’m excited to keep pushing this line of thinking.

Next, I took a look at 2018 and some of the key lessons I’m extracting from the year. This newsletter was actually conceived while writing this article.

Finally, here’s a look at my 2019 yearly theme which I’m calling The Year of The Deliberate.

Oh, and I revamped SamSpurlin.com. It’s a real work of art.
 

The Deliberate Elsewhere

  • Tiago Forte is one of my favorite personal development thinkers and his latest article is a pretty great deep dive into personal knowledge management systems and tagging. Key takeaway — think about tagging the status, usage, or context of a piece of information rather than it’s contents.

  • Shuhari is a mental model for the phases of mastery that comes out of the practice of aikido. It comes from quite the different intellectual and theoretical model than the Dreyfus Model but it makes me happy to see some conceptual overlap.

  • This Twitter thread (which is actually just an excerpt from this article) is straight fire. I didn’t expect to have my understanding of learning fundamentally shifted by an article about professional body painting, but hey, the Internet can be a weird and wonderful place.


That’s it for this issue of The Deliberate. I truly appreciate the handful of you who have already signed up for this thing based solely on what you already know about me. Please don’t hesitate to reach out with comments, questions, or feedback. I’m also continuing with my nearly daily open office hour and I’m always happy to chat.

Until next time,
Sam Spurlin